Frustrated Days

I don't know where to start this. I mean, which part of my life where the depression had an upper hand over other emotions. And putting me further in the pain is the fact that no one has anything to do with this or I could have shared some of the blame with them. It is just because I didn't have any job with me and not by any means it has anything to do with, me not able to make any money..

So Depression or Frustration started when I passed from the college, not really the way you expect when you hear the word passed. I mean some way you have to get out of the college, by the time normal students finish the course the college will relieve you though you may be so blessed with many arrears(Thank God supplementary papers got such a great synonym. Even though the situation is horrible, sounds great when you utter it). So I have had arrears. As a matter of fact I still have it in my credit.

When I was studying in CET there were ample opportunities to grab good jobs. It would have been better if I used ' when I was in CET ' rather than using hard words like 'studying'. It is said that opportunities won't knock the door twice. I didn't even let it knock once. Being there in the haven I didn't have room for any serious thought. But when I got out and with no hope of world's sudden end in the near future, I was put in some serious thought. Even if you are with friends being out of the college premises will make you serious, though it was bit too late to be so..
I could do nothing but let the frustrations creep in


P.S: I got a job now. At present I'm working in Acrodelon

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